Believe

2011-12-05T05:41:00.001+10:00

Went through friends, some of them I put on
but they just left, they said they was riding to the death
But where the fuck are they now?
Now that I need them, I don't see none of them
All I see is him
Fuck all you fair-weather friends
All I need is him
Fucking backstabbers;
When the chips were down you just laughed at us
Now you 'bout to feel the fucking wrath of aftermath, faggots
You gon' see us in our lab jackets and ask us where the fuck we been?
You can kiss my indecisive ass crack, maggots, and the cracker's ass
Little Cracker Jack, beat-making wackass backwards producers
I'm back, bastards

2011-10-25T22:15:00.002+10:00

So I came across this picture while Googling Rihanna. No, I'm not obsessed, I'm not even much of a fan. But yeah, I miss her when she was all sweet, natural, simple and beautiful. Now she's just a crazy wild child, and she scares me. Then again, with all that fame and money, it can really change a person. Anyhoos, this picture reminds me of... me. Haha. The hair, the carefree smile.. Simplicity. Working on a great bikini body like that though :P hehe. I don't know why, but this picture makes me smile. I wanna be a pretty girl with a rockin' body like that xD HAHA, nah kidding. I want to have pictures like that, with smiles that can make others smile too :)

2011-10-21T20:07:00.000+10:00

BOO! :)

R.I.P. Steve Jobs

2011-10-06T20:36:00.000+10:00

The whole world is mourning your passing. You will be missed.

Rantzxzx.

2011-10-01T00:15:00.003+10:00

How is it not frustrating when your own "good friend(s)" can't accept that you're happy with someone they're supposedly unhappy with? Because honestly, these certain "friend(s)" shouldn't even consider themselves ~friends~. Last time I checked, friends are supposed to have your back no matter what, be happy for you and support whatever decisions you make - compromise as far as it can go etc etc. It doesn't work that way anymore? Who are you to call "childish" when you're the one who's in need of self-actualization..? The irony, indeed.

Go on, make it so obvious to the whole world that you don't "accept" that I'm happy with someone you're unhappy with, fine. But don't be a two-faced piece of shit. It makes me feel as though you're only staying "friends" (barely) just for the heck of it, not because you want to. Nothing is more shallow than your facade. If you want to pretend, I'd suggest you take that act and shove it up your a-hole, thank you very much. Don't even have the decency to TRY to learn and accept or understand everything from my side. No, that's just cuz you're not flippin' bothered. Say it all you want "this doesn't change anything, everything between us will still be the same" when you've already made it so clear that that's not the case.

There is just SO MUCH that I can take. I've tried and tried, put in all the effort that I can afford. Kept telling myself that it'll be worth it, but if you can't do the same and make me feel just a LITTLE bit worth it, what the hell am I still doing right? So once and for all, fuck off or get the fuck over it and be a fucking friend. Thank you very much.

PHEW. Wow I finally got to let that off my chest :) & I'm not targeting a certain someone. I just thought I should let it all out of my system, because I believe if you consider yourself as someone's "good friend", you'd make the effort to actually be their GOOD friend. Blehh.

2011-09-20T15:39:00.000+10:00

Skype sessions <3

Will you be my jalebi, baby?

2011-09-19T22:52:00.001+10:00

I am engaged to the best. Haha, jalebi baby! <3

7443 miles, and I still feel you here.

2011-09-16T18:10:00.002+10:00

Dearest fiancé is sick and all I can do is pray that he gets better soon and send tons of retarded pictures to make sure he's laughing. Haha.

Get well real soon, love. If only you were 18 minutes away as opposed to hours :/ but I love you nonetheless.

MWAAAHHH <3

2011-09-09T20:25:00.000+10:00

NASH :)

2011-09-08T03:17:00.001+10:00

Thirteen.

2011-09-05T23:16:00.003+10:00

Cuz people don't usually come back this way

From a place that was dark as I was in

Now let these words be like switch blade to a hater's rib cage

I wanna just say thanks cause your hate is what gave me the strength.

You and I know what it's like to be kicked down, forced to fight.

But tonight, we're alright.

So hold up your lights and let it shine.

This one's for you and me, living out our dreams.

We're right where we should be <3

2011-09-04T01:11:00.002+10:00

I love you. That is all I can say apart from I'm sorry. I truly am.

2011-09-02T03:52:00.001+10:00

I have a love-hate relationship with the moon. You see, I see the same one as you.. but without you.

Eid Mubarak!

2011-08-30T23:47:00.003+10:00

Life is too short to wake up in regrets.

So love the people who treat you right,

and forget about the people who don't.

Believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance, take it.

If it changes your life, let it.

Nobody said that it's going to be easy,

but it is promised that it would be worth it.

So, there's this boy I love and his name is Saad Hafeez. I just thought I'd let the world know, even though no one actually reads my blog but him.. (??) Haha, fail. Oh well, just in case anyway.

Σ' αγαπώ

2011-08-27T21:58:00.002+10:00

I Wouldn't Mind - He Is We

I'm not afraid anymore, I'm not afraid. You came and you took this heart, and set it free.

Forever is a long time but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.
Tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile.. I wouldn't mind it at all.

FReaK-Rohan

2011-08-21T03:29:00.001+10:00

Rust ft. Rohan (Chill-Out Remix) by FReaK

So I'm jamming FReaK-Rohan today :D

Life can't get any awesomer! Or can it?!

2011-08-20T03:13:00.003+10:00

Saad Hafeez Mian Muhammad

You are the most unbelievably amazing person in the world. I'm lost for words <3

2011-08-16T02:20:00.001+10:00

Christina Aguilera Save Me From Myself

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you've gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

When I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting
with your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
from myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Cuz some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying
Cuz when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
from myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you
It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
a better woman to myself
to myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

2011-08-15T00:46:00.002+10:00

"Don't worry about the people in the past. There's a reason why they didn't make it to your future."

Because friendship is not about who you've known longest, but it's about who came and never left your side. People always change, people always leave and it's the people who change to adapt to changes just so they would be able to stick around are the people worth calling your friends.

Lucky(est)

2011-08-13T16:55:00.004+10:00

Do you hear me? I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Through the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning 'round
You hold me right here, right now

2011-08-12T02:57:00.002+10:00

Cause I found a boy who I love more,
Than I ever did you before

Well I found a boy who loves me more,
Than you ever did me before.
So stand beside the river you cried
And let yourself down
Look how you want me now that I don’t need you

Song; I Found A Boy - Adele.

I have found the most amazing person in the world and only God knows how grateful and thankful I am. Everything is so peaceful after letting go of the hurt and the pain, the anger and the sorrow. No resentment, no hatred, just absolute peace.

To forgive.. and completely forget. For good.

Saad Hafeez, thank you for saving me.

2011-08-09T21:46:00.002+10:00

I'm a train wreck in the morning

I'm a bitch in the afternoon

Every now and then without warning

I can be really mean towards you

I'm a puzzle yes indeed

Ever complex in every way

And all the pieces aren't even in the box

And yet, you see the picture clear as day.

I don't know why you love me

And that's why I love you

You catch me when I fall

Accept me flaws and all

And that's why I love you

I neglect you when I'm working

When I need attention I tend to nag

I'm a host of imperfection

And you see past all that

I'm a peasant by some standards

But in your eyes I'm a queen

You see potential in all my flaws

and that's exactly what I mean.

2011-08-08T23:10:00.002+10:00

Sunset Queen by FReaK

Daily dose of ;

-milk

-fruit juice

-Manuka honey with water

-tons of FReaK music

-infinite amount of FReaK lovin'

(HAHA!)

That basically sums up my life right now, apart from all the studying and university work of course. My new beginning. The new chapter of life. I have officially literally turned over a new leaf and I love it. All thanks to my love, dearest Saad Hafeez.

Thank you for everything you've done. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you.

Love you :)

A little push

2011-08-07T23:42:00.000+10:00

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in YOU.

2011-07-28T20:05:00.001+10:00

2011-07-26T19:25:00.000+10:00

Blessed.

:)

2011-07-11T18:50:00.001+10:00

Feels good to wake up smiling again. No more negativity. Just the warmth of happiness.

Amazing.

Freakatize me.

2011-07-09T08:32:00.000+10:00

Thank you for being amazing.

Never again

2011-07-06T04:43:00.000+10:00

Nothing left for you, and I'm very glad :)